Leave the credits intact or you'll be dead meat. i know it's supposed to be: it's never too late to apologize, so don't try to be a smarty-ass by correcting me.

Nabeelah is the name.
Eightteen is the age.
18NOV1991
Scorpion
Ngee Ann Poly, Sch of HSN

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god!
i am so freaking bored at home.
this is the third time that i'm coming online.
i have been stoning myself in front of the tv, but no use.
SAVE ME!!
can you hear the cry of help???

Last day of exam was on 23rd Feb.
24th Feb is the day when nurses went wild :))
hahaha. we went to SENTOSA (Siloso Beach)
the weird part?
my body is not sunburnt.
but instead it's my hands and feet.

oh yes, thanks Farah for trying to both "kill" and save me!
hahaha i am being genuine ok. not sarcastic.

in the train heading to Siloso beach :)

well well well

well, instead of studying, here i am back again

it is the last pp, but i feel as though my pp are all over.

if only.. i still got to wait until 4.30 till i can officially say it.

i just cant bring myself to study.

i have written the notes, i have got to memorise

but the amounts of patho, clinical manifestations, diagnostic tests, nursing management,

and nursing care plan just puts me off from picking up the notes to study.
god god god.

i am gonna be year3. if this is how i am gonna continue i might as well, expel myself from sch.

and well, out of random,

I SO BADLY WANNA GO NORTH INDIA AND SEE TAJ MAHAL.

by the end of this year. that's my plan.

rashi asked me to start saving money if i wanna go.

for the two of us. she is so unreasonable right?

or predictable i should say.

i just feel that my whole life is such a bore.

i've just gone to malaysia and india.

that's it. oh god. i feel envious of those people who are able to go to those eurpoean countries.

i just cant wait to start working just so that i can go arnd the world.

i just wanna get out of Singapore. as soon as possible.

I gotta feeling, that tonight's gonna be bad night
that tonight's gonna be a bad bad night..

Oh Allah. Please save me.
i dunno what's wrong with me?
am i suffering fro bipolar disorder?
is it i am going through a rebelious phase?
i don't understand why my father is still trying to control me.
i mean come on, give it a year or two, i am gonna start working for goodness sake.
must he still be telling me dont eat like that, eat this way(they way he prefers), dont do this, dont do that, dont go there.
i mean come on. i am just going sentosa with my friends.
sentosa means beach. beach means playing with the water and the sand.
so how can i go, but dont play with the water??
is the spirit from under the sea gonna do something to me?
i have never heard of sentosa being "dirty"
yes, ive heard changi beach, east coast. but never sentosa.
just that, it spoiled my mood of wanting to go.
i was so eagerly waiting for 24th, and this had to happen.
which i seriously dampening my mood.
i wish i wasnt born in Singapore.
where parents still have control.
dang, i am gonna start saving money soon.
if i want to move away.
screw my life.

and yes, i have only got one more paper to go!!

gonna be a free bird after that..

hopefully. if someone were to accompany each time i wanna go out.

i guess i can never control this stupid temper of mine.
but waht if i was not the one in the wrong, getting irritated with me for no particular reason.
just because i dont agree with what you are saying or just because i am saying things that are against what you are saying, well then i'm sorry.

and well, only one more week of sch before study week.
and yes, it is the semestral exams, which will indicate whether i can move on 3rd year
hmmm, NR presentation is finally over. and well, my pract test in on coming Tuesday.
haven started studying yet. each procedure has more than 20 requisites to rmber.
and i am so scared i will get Ms Marine again, and on top of that chest tube.
god, i guess i will just ask her to fail me.
but everyone seems to be getting chest tube and blood transfusion.
i wouldnt mind if i got blood trasnfusion, but the thing is that one has alot of checking and alot of documentation
if you forget one, that's it. there goes ur mark.

and yes. i have taken another decision.
i've decided to work in either NUH or IMH for atleast three years before i go overseas
i guess i am certain about that.

i was never able to be myself again after my mum passed away.
i thgt myself to be the pnly hurting over the incident, but as days went by, i got a bit better and knew everyone was feeling the same way.

after i read her assignment, gosh, i must have really caused her a hard time.
i knew that i wasnt close to her as much as i was close to my big sis back then.
we'd gang up on her and bully, but my mum always supported her. so she had the backbone.
but after her passing on, my second sis had really no one to lean back on. she had to start from scratch to build a closer relationship with me. she had to be a mum, a sister, and a friend.
as she wrote in hers, i was going thru a rebellious age at that time, i used to get irritated with my dad alot, and i still do. she used to e the one talking to me and then to my father. but it didn treally work for me. but when i really started growing up, i also realized my dad must be having a hard time trying to make the ends meet, constant worrying abt his 3daughters, and constant worrying on how people would talk if we didnt grow up properly.
but then i guess second one had to go through alot the most. but i am glad i became closer to her. though i make her irritated lots and lots of time, i know she still loves me alot. and she wont give up hopes on me.

just for her and my family, i've decided no matter how i feel, i am going to finish my nursing diploma first. the rest i would think when i have graduated. but thats my main priority for now.
but the only thing i am scared is i will let everyone down.

ps. i am sorry i read ur assignment.

why does it hurt so much??